Bleh ... its kind of bizarre i was making light of how id be making all these emo posts and yet today here i am making one.
Its been a somewhat akward past week, last week my grandmother got diagnosed with some sort of cancer, and this morning the kid of one of my relatives was killed in a wreck. I'm somewhat annoyed with myself cause my personality is somewhat cold and im like very non emo type and so like last week when my mom told me about my grandmother it was so fuckin akward cause im not one that is the comforting kind or the deeply emotional so i was just sort of unphased looking and looked more annoyed than anything and it was such an akward silence between my mom and i... in hindsight i feel like such a dickhead for not reacting to it like a normal person... anyway this morning was sort of surreal, and i been thinking about it all day how horrible it must be to wake up to find that your son's car is plastered on the morning news... bleh.
In a way its one of those cliche 'why do bad things happen to good people type of thing' ... this kid was straight up nerd kind, never dabbled in drugs like i did, never went about life in an utterly wreckless self destructive manner like have .. etc etc..
Luckly im gonna be in san diego this week and ill miss out on having to goto his funeral or what not.. but damn talk about a buzz kill...
So there we go, i wanted an emo post so badly .. its unfortunate that i finally got it.