Today is the anniversary of the famous Luis Day song!
Well now that that title is out of the way! Lets sink into a deeper ocean...
Err...
So its been a lil rough lately. As we all know Oliver lost his battle with cancer. Totally happens sometimes. Maybe. Well it did this time. Anyways, i had a long ass relationship with oliver as a friend. Absolutely nothing in common but this website, but for whatever reason we always kept in touch, even at the prime of my popularity or whatever you want to call it.
I have dealt with cancer in my peripheral for many years, my mom survived breast cancer and maybe you fall into this false sense of security that its just an annoyance. Well it's not... i had no reason to think it would go to shit, but yea it kinda did.
Oliver never got better, and yea he died a day before his bday. It's been a month and change since he left, and it's been hit or miss to be honest. I debated whether it's even worth being a buzz kill about it. But it still makes me angry to see the beer he left in my fridge whenever i open it.
But then i remembered that i made a post about artistic burn out and its a real thing and we have to work through it as human beings, and even showing vulnerability is an important aspect of healing, SO, yeah its been a lil rough. He visited me on his 'farewell tour', and i'm a private person for sure, but i'm also a human being; so of course i'd be remiss to just carry on. I'm sometimes mad that he decided to come over before he died because i still have his beer in my fridge and i still sit smoking cigarettes where he sat across from me, but i know it's insanely selfish for me to expect him to be in as much pain as he was but go out of his way to do an insane trip from england to america to include me on his farewell tour just so i can not be upset about the situation.
I think that it's been a humbling experience for sure, and i appreciate all the support i continue to get from the community and also his family which had no clue of the giant footprint he left behind.
I'm making some pretty cool stuff, and ill continue to be private about some shit, but i think the Toronto meet was a great opportunity to continue being me. I have to remind myself that it would make him deeply sad if i stopped doing what i do.
With that out of the way, lets make some cool shit.
TLDR: I am me because i'm a smushed up version of all the people i get to know. I am nothing without YOU.
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VitalikNerd005
Happy Luis Day!!!!